My name is Ben, and I’m an addict and alcoholic. There’s not a lot of things I’ve struggled with the decision to post here. I’m pretty transparent, my life is an open book, I own my past. However…
This one is something I’ve had a real hard time making the decision to post.
There’s a difference between KNOWING I was addicted, and SEEING me addicted.
These videos were taken about nine months before I hit rock bottom, before we became homeless, on the tail end of an 8 day run with zero sleep. I was hallucinating, bordering on ANOTHER heart attack.
It was bad.
But it wasn’t bad enough for me to stop.
I hadn’t suffered enough. Yet.
No matter how much I don’t want anyone to see this, I DO want people who see me today to see this.
Because we ALL see people this bad on the streets, on corners, on the sidewalk.
And we ALL make some form of opinion about them, without regard to their background, their struggle, what they’ve lived through.
I’m not trying to change that natural tendency we have to judge people - what I want to change is this:
Next time you see somebody THAT bad - I want you to remember that I was THAT bad, and every addict you see out there has the potential in them to do what we do today.
Every single one of them. They just need somebody to see them, to love them, to walk them out of hell, and to help them find their purpose.
We do recover.
I am living proof.
My name is Ben, and I’m an addict and alcoholic.