#vulnerability
First time I am sharing this !
Can you see little tears in my eyes, that little redness and wetness,
Yes ! I was trying hard to avoid my tears in front of my family.
Why?
13 Jul 19 was the day.
No one wanted me to quit in 10, I had to for various reasons.
I cleared my SSB in first attempt while in my 8th semester of engineering
During the SSB, we were around 10 girls in one room.
Before sleeping, we all would chit chat,
For some reason we all became close friends in 5 days
One night we started talking about boyfriends.
Who has and for how long?
In the last it was my chance.
Shying ( thinking I am odd one out) I said – “ I do not have any”
They all were amazed and asked in wonder “WHY”
And this time with pride in my voice and eyes –I replied – “ My first and last love is my uniform, I won’t give that place to anyone”
This statement was proven right by my husband right after our marriage.
When we got posted together and he saw me working, he said- “ Fauj comes first to you”
After I quit the services – I cried for around 2 months everyday looking at the blue beauty hung in my closet, never ever will I get the chance to wear it again.
It’s been 13 years, writing this part of mine brings tears.
I was born as a soldier in this life,
I want to be born as a soldier in all my lives !
Jai hind
Jai Bharat !
First time I am sharing this !
Can you see little tears in my eyes, that little redness and wetness,
Yes ! I was trying hard to avoid my tears in front of my family.
Why?
13 Jul 19 was the day.
No one wanted me to quit in 10, I had to for various reasons.
I cleared my SSB in first attempt while in my 8th semester of engineering
During the SSB, we were around 10 girls in one room.
Before sleeping, we all would chit chat,
For some reason we all became close friends in 5 days
One night we started talking about boyfriends.
Who has and for how long?
In the last it was my chance.
Shying ( thinking I am odd one out) I said – “ I do not have any”
They all were amazed and asked in wonder “WHY”
And this time with pride in my voice and eyes –I replied – “ My first and last love is my uniform, I won’t give that place to anyone”
This statement was proven right by my husband right after our marriage.
When we got posted together and he saw me working, he said- “ Fauj comes first to you”
After I quit the services – I cried for around 2 months everyday looking at the blue beauty hung in my closet, never ever will I get the chance to wear it again.
It’s been 13 years, writing this part of mine brings tears.
I was born as a soldier in this life,
I want to be born as a soldier in all my lives !
Jai hind
Jai Bharat !
