I was called weak for leaving agency recruiting. I was told I couldnāt handle it. I was told I was lazy for taking the easy route and going into corporate. However, when I chose to leave, I was one of the top producers in the division, high KPIs, I was on track to get promoted and win an annual bonus of $12k+. Yet I chose to walk away.Ā
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Why did I do this? My mental health was suffering immensely. I was a top performer and constantly exceeded all my metrics. However I wasnāt sleeping for months, I was waking up crying with a panic attack most nights, I woke up scared to go to work, I felt numb and depressed day in and out. The more I performed, the more money I made, the worse I felt.Ā
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I was conflicted for a long time, but it wasnāt until I made a decision to leave and when I accepted a new opportunity elsewhere that I felt I could breathe for the first time. Iām now able to find a balance. Iām sleeping through the night and I no longer wake up scared. I feel very happy for the first time in a while.Ā
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Iām thankful for the recruiting experience that agency gave me because it did jump start my career and taught me so much. It got me to where I am today, but it wasn't a weakness for leaving an environment that wasnāt meant for me anymore, rather it was a strength because I chose what was best for me. All the money in the world was not worth it for me if my mental health was suffering.Ā
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Youāre not weak if you leave a job that no longer serves you. People leave jobs for all different kinds of reasons, so please be kind enough not to judge or to shame without knowing what someone might be going through. Just because a job is working for you, doesnāt mean it works for someone else. And please remember itās not that you COULDNāT do it, itās because you DIDNāT want to. Choose what is best for you not for anyone else ā¤ļø
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