Alright LinkedIn, letâs be a bit vulnerable today.
**Note that this is tough to accurately convey in writing, so if youâd like to get the certain je ne sais quoi and nuance that will inevitably escape this post, consider watching the video I made on this topic, linked in the comments.**
This year has been a weird year for me. Itâs been both the best year of my life and arguably the worst year of my life (at the risk of sounding dramatic).
The best year, because a lot of conventional âsuccess metricsâ in my life have reached all-time highs: wealth, business growth with AlgoExpert, followers on YouTube and LinkedIn, etc.. And these are things that Iâve historically sought out, so itâs been very satisfying to reach them.
The worst year, because, especially during the middle months of the year (February to July), I felt very unhappyânoticeably less happy than in previous yearsâdespite having all the reason to be happy and having ostensibly âmoreâ than I had in previous years.
After some deep and prolonged introspection, I concluded that perhaps my workaholic tendencies, which had previously rewarded me, were getting the best of me, and that perhaps I needed to allow myself to enjoy life a little bit more, to enjoy the fruits of my labor more, and not to be constantly working or guilt-tripping myself for not working (I cannot overstate the toxicity of that last point about guilt-tripping oneself).
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As far as takeaways, I think it would be disingenuous of me to use this experience to vilify hustle culture, since I do firmly believe that hard work is required to achieve certain things, and I don't regret having worked as much as I have in recent years; I don't think I'd be where I am today had I done things differently, and I'm happy about where I am today.
At the same time, it would also be silly for me to undermine the importance of work-life balance, given that I neglected it so outrageously and that it clearly eventually had a negative impact on my life.
So, I'll leave it as an exercise to the reader to extract a lesson from my experience and from their own experiences đ
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P.S. I've been making a big effort to enjoy life more during the last few months, and I'm happy to report that I'm very happy these days đ